You are exactly where you need to be

You are exactly where you need to be... I LOVE this quote.


Someone starts talking about having to go to the market on a whatsapp group and that’s it... my brain goes into overdrive with all the things I need to and should do today... and things I forgot to do yesterday..


I need nappies, some milk, some extra veg for food for the rest of this week, need to write a list... (start typing it out on my phone... not sure why I continue to do this because I always forget! Pen and paper, pen and paper!)


Oh and dammit I forgot to get baby milk yesterday, need that.... f^*+ while we are on the subject of forgetting I’ve said I would learn some Christmas zumba routines so I need to do that, when can I do that today hmmm...


Oh, is that the time I need to set up my class... I need to film one today too. I wonder if anyone is going to turn up... I know, I’ll double my class up! I’ll film and teach...


Must remember to get home, wash my hair and get to baby group before my hair...


Must upload some more videos today too. I’ll do it when the kids are in bed. Hmm need to watch last episode of ... oh what’s it called. What am I going to wear Saturday.. I’ve two dresses I’ll just try them later (always later...)


Coffee. Need a coffee. S^*+ I’ve not had breakfast. Protein shake. Argh need to go.


Bye Fin, give mummy a kiss... NO! Ok byeee!


Ah, need my phone, need the boxing gloves, car keys, oh and the phone charger just in case no one turns up so I can film class with some music... ahhhh right. Let’s go. Broom brroooom (me in the car!)


This was literally my thought process this morning. In the space of a few minutes.


I’m not even working at the moment apart from my classes....!!


*faceplant


It is like a hundred computer tabs open at once in this brain. I am CERTAIN everyone is like this who runs their own business (however big it is!!) and has kids... and is trying to also maintain a social life of some sort 😂


That quote, pictured, is what I have to continually remind myself because I set myself crazy goals sometimes!! I find them realistic at the time, put hours into it in one day (this website for example!!) but all those hours simply cannot be maintained on a day to day basis! YES I am like a dog with a bone when I want to get something done. If I set my mind to it, I will do it and I’ll be dammed if I cannot achieve what I set out to do.

I have come up against a few barriers lately relying on others to help me with some “things”... a reminder to me that others may not be as quick at completing “things” as I am... and a reminder to chill out and let things happen (giving them a polite shove in the right direction in the meantime...).

I have always had and probably always will have an absolute pet hate of lateness.... living in brunei has certainly tested my patience with this. Brunei time is basically not the same as British time, put it that way. I’ve friends who find it amusing when this patience is tested, and it is certainly tested on a daily basis. I would say I’m getting used to it as I would love to be... but I am not! 😬

Coming back to the quote.... and the fact I tie myself in knots some days with the ridiculous tasks I set myself. I am almost certain... in fact I am certain I’ve got this trait from my Dad. I want to achieve something, therefore I will achieve it right now!! My Dad is an absolute legend, fact. I won’t say any more than that because he wouldn’t want me to. I just want to point out his legendary status then move on. Mum is also an absolute legend. I’ve amazing parents and feel so lucky to have them in my life.

Wanting to achieve things...right now.... is GREAT in most aspects but not so when relying on other people to help complete “stuff” to get me there and also, first and foremost, before anything I am a Mummy and these kids need love, attention and basically keeping alive. My husband is away at the moment so it’s just me and my amazing Amah who helps with the house chores and babysitting whilst I work... but, if I focus on my business it takes time (precious time!) away from my kids which is something I am well aware of and moreso the past week since I got my website up and running. It has taken a LOT of hours to get this going and working on my members area which is the main part.

I need to also maintain good mental health.... stressing over a small home business is not ideal and makes a happy person into a horrid person... no one wants that! So for the past few days I have taken a chill pill. Even tonight. Pressure off. I’m not setting a date that my members area on my website will be open (I previously said 5th December... hmm that’s not happening!). It will be open when I’ve (one man team) done it 💪 whilst maintaining good mum status (is very much like “best mum in the world” status but working on that with my moody 7 year old...


You are exactly where you need to be. Hell yes 😎